Preventing Her Shutdown

Preventing Her Shutdown

An inside look of an ordinary “John Doe” caregiver, husband, sharing my experiences living and caring for my wife with Alzheimer’s. We have been married 43 years and I am trying to not let go and avoid her shutdown. Writing a diary about the events of the day and expressing my deepest feelings on paper not only helped me alleviate my emotional pain but helped me sort out how I was going to act differently the next day. Keeping up my diary helped me make new decisions on how I was going to react to her continuous behavioral changes. Soon this diary turned into this book. Hopefully, others living this same reality can benefit from my shared experiences.

Many times I wonder what she is thinking or what her feelings are because now she doesn’t speak at all. I only have her facial expressions or sounds. Is she happy? Is she sad? Sometimes I see a sad or “lost” face. When I see a straight face I try to provoke a smile or laughter just to be sure she is not sad. Does she know she is not well? Does she know how she was before? Does she remember her past? What I do to help her restore her past.

Does my wife know she is not well? Does she know how she was before she was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s? Does she remember her past? Then I realized “what about us”, our 43 years of marriage, does she remember that past? She recognizes me but how far back? Did our marriage begin in 1979 or 2017 when she was diagnosed? I wasn’t sure where I was in her memory, her friend or her husband. I am still not sure how she sees me.

The real scary moment for me is when she wakes up in the morning and I greet her, she stares at me as if she doesn’t recognize me. There is a gaze and no “connection”. Now I am desperate. I ask her “do you want a big kiss or small one” and she sometimes gestures a small one. If no answer I just kiss her anyway and she responds with a smile, now I am “connecting”. I pray that gaze of no recognition in the “wakeup” never lasts forever. “Please God, don’t let her go into Neverland.”

How do I connect with my wife and get her to connect with me? This is always a constant desperation on my part especially because she doesn’t speak. I am always afraid she will stop connecting with me, especially when I get that “blank look”, that “daze into no man’s land.” When this happens I never show my “ real panic” and always act as if everything is normal. Is she losing it? Described in Preventing Her Shutdown is how I learned to “connect” with her when I get that “blank look”, understand what she is thinking and what her feelings are, even though she is silent. More importantly, detailed is how she has learned to reach out and connect with me to communicate.

My experiences and actions in real time “racing against the Alzheimer’s clock” to keep her communicating and interacting every day, even though she no longer speaks, and my very personal unloaded emotions never confided to anyone, are detailed in my never-ending battle to prevent her shutdown.
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Free: Survivability: Confronting the Unprecedented Risks of Today’s Geo-Poli-Cyber™ Threatened World to Competitively Thrive in the 21st Century

Survivability: Confronting the Unprecedented Risks of Today’s Geo-Poli-Cyber™ Threatened World to Competitively Thrive in the 21st Century
In 2020, the COVID-19 pandemic exposed western democracies’ systemic failure to prepare for a precedented threat. This cost too many lives that could have been saved. Moreover, it exposed grave malfunctions in the current global world order—and its economic, legislative, regulative, and democratic models and institutions. It also crystalized that cyber security defenses and designs accepted as gospel are no longer fit for the purposes of defending the nation, businesses, and protecting the citizen.

Consider governmental failures to prepare for a pandemic they were warned about. Will yours be ready for cyber terrorism? Election meddling? Fake news? How about sinister exploitations of IOT, AI, and quantum computing? Overall, is your government prepared to mitigate Geo-Poli-Cyber™ attacks? This book explores those certainties and new paths forward.

In this new era, safeguarding nation-states, organizations, and citizens has less to do with cyber security . . . it has everything to do with survivability. Free on Kindle.
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Psychedelics For Everyone
In Psychedelics for Everyone, Matt Zemon provides readers with an inspiring foundation for understanding the profound transformational power of psychedelics. This psychedelics book gathers accurate information on a number of different psychedelic medicines and put them into one place for easy reference. Though written for people with a non-science background, many of the chapters in this book have been medically reviewed for accuracy. A source of unbiased, science-based insights and practical guidance for safe use, the intention of this book is to share information that anyone can read, understand, and trust.

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Help Me, I’m Here: Poems to Myself

Help Me, I'm Here: Poems to Myself

If you enjoyed the darkness of Edgar Allan Poe’s poetry as a teenager, but fell in love with the healing of Nikita Gil as an adult, then Help Me, I’m Here: Poems to Myself is for you. Part lonely and raw childhood poems and part ultimate self-love that blooms because of growing up and surviving, this collection is the conversation that people are too afraid to have with themselves.

“Anastasia Helena Fenald captures meeting your inner teen angst with empathy and radical self-love. Help Me, I’m Here is a moving collection of poems that will hold your heart in a warm and validating embrace.”

-Oombi Solis Flores, author of (Be)longing from World Stage Press

Help Me, I’m Here: Poems to Myself is both a gloriously heartwarming, but also a painfully heartbreaking collection of personal call and response poems between Anastasia Helena Fenald’s adolescent and adulthood selves. Her poems, or trios, focus on three separate voices: childhood, adulthood, and the sum total of who she is now. Witness the growth of her poetry written between the ages of 11 to 30, but also relish in the candid conversations of acknowledging and accepting the darkness that haunts us as we mature from child to adult. $4.99 on Kindle.
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Start Your Channel: The Ultimate Guide To Making Money On YouTube

Start Your Channel: The Ultimate Guide To Making Money On YouTube

Master YouTube. Make money.
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This carefully crafted eBook will give you everything you need to get started on your road to becoming a successful content creator on YouTube.

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The Secret of Life: A Memoir Of Getting Younger

The Secret of Life: A Memoir Of Getting Younger

The story of a cancer survivor, who began competing in triathlon in his sixties, showing that everybody can realize his dreams and becoming ageless! $0.99 on Kindle.
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Free: Going Through the Motions: A Home Workout Manual

Going Through the Motions: A Home Workout Manual
If you can’t make it to the gym often enough to justify that membership fee, this is the book for you. It provides you with all the knowledge you need to quit the gym and start working out at home. After reading this, you’ll be able to turn any small room in your house or apartment into a home gym. The book’s emphasis on exercising for exercise’s sake will help you look at the phrase “going through the motions” in a whole new light. Free on Kindle.
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Prepper’s Off Grid Ultimate Survival Handbook

Prepper's Off Grid Ultimate Survival Handbook
8 Books in 1 – The complete Bradley Stone collection. This bundle includes books on off grid living, solar power, prepping for long term survival, food preservation, canning, first aid and so much more! $0.99 on Kindle.
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Free: We Are Alpha Dogs: How Seven Dogs Become Business Legends

We Are Alpha Dogs: How Seven Dogs Become Business Legends

Finding themselves profoundly disappointed by their human family, being left home from the family vacation they have always been a part of, and having to take care of themselves, seven Dogs have to decide what to do next. Do they run off and find a new home, or wait for the family to return only to do just what they are told to do? Or do they decide to write their own story, dream big and seek to realize their full potential?

Regardless of what they decide, how do they organize themselves to deal with the unforeseen problems that come up? How can they find the resources they need when no one thinks they can? How do they realize their dreams and become the legendary Dogs they can become?

If you find yourself in a similar situation, can you follow their lead and write your own future, solve problems, and find the needed resources for you to do something truly special? Can you also become legendary? Therein lies a tale of accomplishment you can follow. You, too, can become special in your world, and perhaps even legendary. Free on Kindle.
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The Leadership Connection: The Link Between Leading and Succeeding

The Leadership Connection: The Link Between Leading and Succeeding

 

Make the Connection!
Every organization, whether big or small, strives for the same thing – to achieve greater results. In today’s unpredictable business environment, companies face new challenges and the need for strong leaders has never been greater. Leaders who can deliver consistent results are the greatest asset to any business.

Unfortunately, most organizations spend little time developing their people to think and act as leaders. Regardless of what industry we work in, as leaders, we are all in the “People” business and we must do more than merely train our leaders; it is imperative for success that we develop them.

The LEADERSHIP Connection introduces business owners, entrepreneurs, leaders, and team members to the Elite Leadership System – ELS. The ELS allows you to embark on a unique journey with your people, continually assessing and enhancing their leadership skills and positioning them for achieving greater results.

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Free: Kettlebell Catalyst: The exercise guide for women to build strength, lean muscle, and self confidence to overcome limiting beliefs

Kettlebell Catalyst: The exercise guide for women to build strength, lean muscle, and self confidence to overcome limiting beliefs

Are you struggling with trusting yourself? Do you feel limited—both mentally and physically? “I wrote this book for you because once upon a time I felt limited, but not anymore. Kettlebells were the catalyst for me to realize I am limitless, and so are you!”

Kettlebell Catalyst, by kettlebell specialist and entrepreneur Colleen Conlon, is a study in how physical exercise can lead to mental resilience. While the book discusses Kettlebell training, she mainly focuses her writing on Hardstyle Kettlebell Technique. The advantages of this particular style of training include, but are not limited to, decreasing body fat, increasing muscle mass, improving posture, increasing strength, increasing endurance, and improvement in your mind-body connection.

Complete with true stories from women who have been where you are now and made it through to the other side with the help of the Kettlebell, this guide is designed to be both educational and motivational. If you have trouble staying present in the moment or listening to your body, this technique will help you reconnect your mind to your body because it involves fast motions with heavy equipment—which means you have to focus to avoid injury.

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Called to Speak Lead and Impact : 20+ Experts Share Wisdom and Lessons on Life and Business

Called to Speak Lead and Impact : 20+ Experts Share Wisdom and Lessons on Life and Business

More people than ever are reevaluating their lives and choosing a new path as to how they want to show up in the world. Why?

We have been shaken awake. We have gone through a time of major transition from being on autopilot to redefining every area of our lives. The societal norms are broken open for us to establish deeper meaning and a higher purpose.

This manifesto of insights includes over 250 + years, combined of conscious leadership, masterful work, and business acumen from a powerful group of luminaries (legends) called to speak, lead and impact. Their insights, stories and principles that are part of this guidebook will jumpstart your own journey to becoming more…positive, productive & prosperous.

On these pages you will discover:

Real-life stories on how people segue from mundane jobs into becoming trailblazers
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Your resilience, resolve and relentlessness to face challenges and do hard things
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Every chapter is written by someone who has taken the heroic journey to unleash their legacy. Through their stories and guidance, this book provides a framework for others to speak, lead, and impact the world. $0.99 on Kindle.
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Organize Your Home In A Year Or Less!

Organize Your Home In A Year Or Less!
Learn How To Keep Your House Under Control, Bring any Home out of its mess, Master the Magic of Organization and Enjoy Being At Home NOW with 12 Practical Exercises!

Are you sick and tired of your messy home, disorganized rooms and things away from its place?

Have you tried countless other organization solutions but nothing seems to work?

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Amazon Best-selling author, Kai M. Jordan provides you with a step-by-step blueprint to Organize Your Home and Life without overwhelming yourself with complicated approaches and strategies.

In Organize Your Home In A Year Or Less!, you’ll discover:

The biggest mistake people make when Organizing their homes that prevents them from enjoying a peaceful life in an organized home, and how to understand Decluttering Vs Organizing.
The only 3 techniques you need to know for an organized home and life.
The 5 ways to live your dream life with an organized home with 12 practical exercises to apply throughout the year.
The 4 things you should know about the difference between Decluttering and Organizing.
Secrets to a happier, healthier and organized life without sacrificing all your time and mental energy to achieve it.
What Benjamin Franklin said about Organizing!
Why your stress level is hurting your progress – and what to do to overcome it.
The best yearly plan with 12 exercises crafted carefully for you using scientifically proven strategies to help you on your journey to organize your home.
Practical strategies, solutions, tips and tricks to organize your kitchen, living area, bathroom, kids room, garage, attic, bedroom, closet, sentimental items, maintenance and cleaning.
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Imagine how you’ll feel once you enjoy your life in your organized and clean homewhile controlling your stuff, and how your life could change for the better.

So if you’re currently suffering from a messy and disorganized house, you can now rewire your brain, take back control of your stuff and enjoy a more peaceful life with Organize Your Home In A Year Or Less!

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How to Survive in The Woods

How to Survive in The Woods
Survival situations can be downright scary. Even the most prepared individuals can find themselves being shook to their very core by the mental and emotional stress that emergencies bring about. If you aren’t already prepared, the situation can become even more stressful, and potentially fatal depending on the severity of your emergency.

In How to Survive in the Woods, I am going to show you essential life-saving strategies that will serve you in times of need. While this book is geared toward maximum survival needs, which would have you living in the woods for an extended period of time, it is useful for all emergencies.

Being prepared can be the difference between life or death in many circumstances, even at-home emergencies we may face. Having the knowledge you need to survive even the most dire emergencies means that you will have the knowledge and confidence you need to survive much smaller emergencies, too.

Throughout the chapters of How to Survive in the Woods we discuss different survival needs and methods and how to fulfill them with both conventional tools, and improv tools that you may need to “make up as you go.” This way, you can start to see the benefit of everything around you, and apply the creative can-do mentality that is needed in survival situations.

The specific topics we cover in How to Survive in the Woods include:

– Why you would need to survive in the woods (and why the woods are the best place to go)

– Different emergencies and the circumstances they can create

– The difference between bugging out and bugging in

– The most important elements of survival

– What you need to meet those elements of survival

– How to pick the right spot for your camp, and how to secure it

– Important safety and protection skills you need for in the woods

– How to acquire, store, and prep food safely (including hunting tips)

– What you can cook with minimal ingredients

– How to start a garden in the woods (and how to grow it all the way to harvest)

– Essential medicines you can create from plants

– The importance of canning, and what types of foods you can preserve and how

As I promised, everything you need to survive any circumstance in the woods is outlined here. From finding the right spot for camp and preparing your shelter, to feeding yourself and treating illnesses and injuries, you can find it all inside the pages of How to Survive in the Woods. To make it that much better, each chapter ends in specific action steps you can take to prepare yourself and your family today.

If you are ready to discover the art of survival and to start taking tangible action toward protecting yourself and your family from any situation, such as a disaster or a societal collapse, this is the go-to book that will prepare you. $0.99 on Kindle.
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Free: Ripped Off!: Overtested, Overtreated and Overcharged, the American Healthcare Mess

Ripped Off!: Overtested, Overtreated and Overcharged, the American Healthcare Mess

Your share of your health insurance premium and the amount you are paying for your yearly deductible, co-pays, and prescriptions are soaring. Don’t forget that your employer’s share of your premium is coming out of your salary. And unfortunately, you are not alone. What can you do to avoid unnecessary costs and encourage American healthcare reform?

Ripped Off! is your guide to better understanding the problems of the American healthcare system—and what you can do for yourself and how to help enact change. Gilbert Simon, MD, has been a primary care physician for over 50 years. He has seen how the corporate takeover of medicine created a costly, bloated, complex, profit-driven bureaucracy. He explains that the current system is out-dated, unsustainable and that we have come to the time for major reform. Ripped Off! shows you how healthcare spending will only increase until major legislative and administrative changes are made and how, like other industrialized countries, America can provide high-quality and equitable service to all of its citizens. After reading this book, you will:

  • Recognize the need for healthcare reform
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Ensure Educational Success: Innovative and Common Sense Strategies for Leading a School Culture Where Teachers and Students Thrive

Ensure Educational Success: Innovative and Common Sense Strategies for Leading a S chool Culture Where Teachers and Students Thrive

Students are our future – but what if our current methods of instruction are jeopardizing that future?

When students struggle, frustrated teachers often tend to assign more work or extra exam practice to improve grades, but this type of traditional instruction fails to ensure high-performance.

When teachers struggle, frustrated administrators often tend to focus on technical solutions to adaptive problems, but this type of leadership fails to produce quality teachers.

In a world of constant new initiatives and expensive “teach the teachers” courses, educators need to do more to effectively facilitate real connection that inspires learning for their students and results in lasting change for their classroom.In Ensure Educational Success, Chief of Schools Dr. Samuel Nix shares a new way of thinking for leaders that will positively impact student achievement and transform your school. A practical approach for comprehensive educational reformation, this guide will empower your learners, teachers, and yourself to facilitate more successful learning environments.

You’ll discover:

  • The Leadership Cycle, a research-based process to create sustainable learning and teaching success in your education system.
  • How to promote a growth mindset and awareness of adaptive challenges to motivate your classroom.
    Seven principles of strategic planning that aid in setting meaningful priorities, monitoring, and navigating them with flexibility.
  • Positive measurement strategies to assess impact, reinforce progress, and provide effective feedback.
  • How to create and grow a culture of accountability for students, faculty, and administration that encourages problem-solving and ensures clear expectations.

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Play It Like You Mean It! Supercharge Your Playing and Let Your Piano Work for You

 Play It Like You Mean It! Supercharge Your Playing and Let Your Piano Work for You

Every proficient pianist can master technique, musical theory, and muscle memory. But to evolve into a remarkable pianist requires more than reading sheet music and playing scales.

You’ve practiced the library of classical music and improved your skill. Now elevate your playing to transcend melody and tell a story that reaches the hearts of your listeners—not just their ears.

Esteemed pianist Emile Pandolfi shares his holistic philosophy that harmonizes method and mindset to help you mature into a well-rounded musician beyond training and music lessons. A light-hearted and humorous guide for any serious piano student, Play It Like You Mean It teaches you how to musically communicate through every chord and make your music resonate more passionately with your listeners—for an encore-worthy performance each time you play.

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  • How to effectively infuse emotion and dynamics into basic and higher-level techniques.
  • A complete approach to memorizing a new piece—and overcoming stage fright to wow the crowd (or living room).
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Backyard Homestead & Prepper’s Long Term Survival Handbook

Backyard Homestead & Prepper's Long Term Survival Handbook

4 Books in 1

1) Prepper’s Long Term Survival Bible

2) Backyard Homestead Handbook

3) Raising Chickens For Beginners

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